Im afraid to move to California because of past failure?

Im 20 years old. For as long as I can remember, ive always wanted to move to california. I have two relatives that live out there that I see every year since i was a baby. I wanted to go to college there but during my senior year of high school, my mom pressured me to stay on the east coast. I wind up going to a branch campus of penn state. I did a year there, but I didnt know how to mange my time there and i wind up failing a few classes. Because of this, I lost my campus housing and I was forced to move back home. he following semester I went to community college to pretty much start over and pick my grades back up. Ive been there 3 semesters already. My mom wants me to stay in jersey when I apply for another university. However,at first I was gonna settle and go to school in state, but now ive been having these thoughts about moving to california and attending one of the state schools. My grades at community college have been steady. I know if I were to tell my mom I wanted to go to california, she would try to halt my plans with negative thoughts and trying to guilt trip me into going. she never wanted to move to cali, but after I failed penn state, that just gives her something else to hold against me. I dont blame her, she lost out on 20,000 dollars because of my mistake at penn state. But i think for her she is just scared of loosing her baby. Im male by the way. I think my biggest fear is going to california, but then repeat the same mistake there like I did at penn state. Im afraid of failing again. Not that I would fail on purpose but thats wht scares me.But this is the only way i see making it to california, i dont want to move there for just parties, i want an education there and I love the atmosphere.Sorry if im venting too much. I feel like if i move there for school, ill have a smoother transition on getting myself established there cuz then I would meet people, be easier to find a job there, instead of sending resumes from east coast to the west coast, all of that hassle. By the way im from New Jersey. What do you think? Honest opinions? I have of course thought about paying back my own school loans, Even if i suggested tht to my mom, she would say, I would be stressed out trying to pay back school loans. Its always something.